I was just a flash in the pan...... Read twice before you reach a conclusion ;)

I was just a flash in the pan
And I refuse to believe that

I can bring home the bacon again

You may call me a drunk dame,but
"Winners fail until they succeed"
is a myth,and
I am a failure

And the realization has only intensified
Once upon a time
I was a strong girl
But this is no longer true
Hope is an obsolete notion

Desolation awaits me
I do not concede that

I can fathom whatever I wish to

In the future,
Melancholia would be the maxim for me
No longer can it be said that

I can create my own sunshine

It will be evident that
I am a lackadaisical  and my existence is an otiose undertaking
It is foolish to presume that

I AM A FOUNTAIN OF OPPORTUNITIES!!!

And all this would have been a reality but I opted to read it bottom up....